lmaoooooo, found this on reddit
Haven’t posted in a while. Mostly because my life has been incredibly boring in the past few months. The only thing I get excited about nowadays is food.
definitely not supposed to pick all number one seeds for final four, but fuck it. march madness is upon us. i dont know shit about coll basketball but i end up doing pretty decent in every bracket pool i do, knock on wood. I think the less you know about it, the better you do…. But yea, hopefully I do decent this year, cuz i’m in a pool with almost 1.5k dollars of prize money in it.
Not lookin forwards to school. I used to get excited about it actually. I used to get excited about going to class, messing around etc. Mostly because I used to think about it as a hang out session with friends, but with a professor making noise in the front of the room.. but now that I am sort of getting my ass kicked, its about time to take things seriously.
I never thought I would say this, but now I sort of dread the idea of going to back to rutgers. I don’t want to go back to school. I am sick of it actually. No offense to whoever this applies to, but honestly, some of my classmates need to loosen up a little. Some of these averages are absolutely ridiculous.
Studying for the most recent med chem exam, I was 2 seconds away from fainting. I was with eman when I had a sort of panic attack. Never in my life have I had a panic attack, or was ever close to having one. But my biggest mistake was not studying for those goddamn medchem quizes (tip to younger pharm kids, study for your med chem quizes…) So yea, learning all that shit in essentially one day will END you, as it did to me.
I was lightheaded, dizzy, my pulse was racing… had to go outside to get fresh air. I don’t know what came over me. Its time for a change. All my grades have pretty much been in the 50s and 60s…. and when the averages are in the 70s, 80s, and 90s… it can take a toll on your confidence. I don’t know, I have to shape up. My confidence/motivation/drive is totally shot. Either way you look at it, something is wrong and I don’t really know how to fix it.
So today my friend asks me to go on a condom run for her. She was too embarrassed to buy them in the store herself, and I was under the assumption that it was an impulse, spur of the moment necessity for her at the time, so I hopped to it…. I look at my watch, 3:00 PM. This girl needs her fix I guess? Isn’t this her BF’s job to buy this?
So I picked up some. She was particular about the brand and type of condom, as if she would have an anaphylactic reaction if she didn’t get the ribbed version…
All of a sudden a few classmates roll in right behind me in line at the cashier. One of em, I swear, was eating a literal 8 inch cucumber, whole, Non-sliced. Just, this extremely wide, extremely dark, green cucumber.
Holding it like Bugs bunny holding a carrot stick.
So my classmate and I glance at the cashier, glance at each other, and glance at our respective items… the cashier totally sports a smirk, “these boys are definitely having a fun night tonight” is what she thinks. I could tell by the way she took my credit card from my hand. An excessively firm “have a great day” sealed the deal for me.
Bee tee double-you, I bought a small stick of overpriced deodorant, to sort of absorb the blow of slight awkwardness that always somewhat accompanies buying condoms.
I feel as though no matter how old I get, I will always get slightly weirded out buying condoms in the store, especially the Busch campus student center. It’s a timeless sorta awkwardness that will always linger, especially the second you make eye contact with the cashier. I know it, cuz I work at CVS…
One weird combination I remember someone buying at CVS was this…
1. Condoms
2. A Bottle of Magnesium citrate (laxative)
3. A broom/mop, some cleaning device thingie
4. Glue
My imagination went wild after that and I couldn’t focus on filling prescriptions. I spend the remainder of my shift intensely pondering about the intricate situations that would need ALL four of these items at the same time.
And the thing that scared me most…. is that I could think of MANY scenarios.
It’s a contest that is held once a year at Rutgers, where every contestant is given a hd camera, laptop, and one week to make a 5 minute movie. I didn’t get to do it last year because of exams.
This year, I have Pharmacology, poisons, intro to PK, and med chem around the same time of the contest.
I don’t give a FUCK if I fail, I’m gonna make a fucking movie. I completely regretted not participating last year. It’s time for me to suck it up and focus… because honestly, I don’t have much to look forward to this year, and I CANNOT let this pass.
WTF. First off, I don’t know why I’m up this early, but whatever.
I saw this video on CNN and basically….. Justin Bieber is going to the Playboy mansion. AND. All the playmates are going gaga over this fucking kid. OMG. Isn’t he like, 15 years old. What the fuck is he going to do in the Playboy mansion. This makes me sick to my stomach (mostly of jealousy).
Honestly, this has made me realize that I need to do something important with my life… something so awesome, that Hugh Hefner will want to invite ME over. (end of rant)
few updates on my life:
-inactivated facebook. 2 days sober. Tryin to go the whole semester without it. Tumblr will have to be my outlet. I really only used facebook to creep on people, so hopefully this hiatus will change me for the better.
-My parents found knives and a saw in the trunk of my car. Along with at least 4 soda bottles, kfc/mcdonalds/burger king/starbucks/wawa/pollo tropical bags, cups, and wrappers. Which led to me finally showing them the pharmD video. They are extremely proud, yet utterly disgusted of me.
-Currently at home now… cramming for pharmacology, while eating my mom’s ridiculously amazing “filipino” spaghetti. I am OD’ing on meat/garlic/tomato right now. About to pass out for like 4 hours probably.
-Did some dirty dancing during Doris’ amazing bday bash. I hope I made T-dawg proud. Bummer to those that missed out, twas a great stress relief.
-On that note, I am epic failing on all my exams. Yet another piece of evidence that I should drop out.
-My housemate Kevin legit offered to spot me 1,000 dollars to help me go to Europe with him this summer. The whole trip will cost about 2-3k. I can’t afford it. He started to tell me the kinds of naughty things he planned to do in Europe. Well, to make it worse, pretty much all my housemates are going. They are getting two weeks of the Eurail pass….. Flying into amsterdam, first thing. Going to Barcelona approximately during the time of Champion’s league finals…then prob a few other cities. I think I am just making myself feel worse by saying this shit. I really can’t accept that kind of money. Is that weird?
-Miraj officially has my favorite tumblr page, you should all follow him, NOW.
-Radiohead’s new album…. Hmmmm. too short. Not enough guitar IMO… Its a cross between In Rainbows, and Thom Yorke’s solo album, The Eraser. Both of which are incredible, but I would have liked to see the album hit harder, like they did on their “Hail to the Thief” era. To be honest, I thought the new album was going to sound like that one song Thom Yorke put out for the Twilight soundtrack….. ok, yes i said it, the Twilight soundtrack. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7nz6-UVrmU This song is atmospheric, it hits hard, it has that minimal electronic flair that he enjoys doing in his solo stuff. If I had an entire album of that shit, I’d be in heaven. Or if he had an extention of “The Eraser”, I would’ve exploded cranial/auditory jizz. I have to give the new album a few more listens before it sinks in though… before I can really make a judgment on it.
-The repressed hipster inside of me is frolicking in joy for this news: Arcade Fire won best album of the year. LMFAO, I love them, but why the fuck did the grammy’s give that award to them? The grammy’s should have stuck with their own kind and picked Gaga/Kanye or something. I mean, they just totally let down a few million people. I was at an Arcade Fire concert about a year ago at PNC (incredible,btw) and it didn’t even sell out. Yet, I feel as though people would give both their testicles/ovaries to see Lady Gaga/Kanye live… Why is the industry teasing me? I know things aren’t going to change with mainstream music, so why even try? It’s not even that I hate mainstream music. The problem is that I have been brainwashed to LOVE it.
“black and yellow, black and yellow, black and yellow, black and yellow, aaaaAAAA, you know what it isss, everything I do…. I DO IT BIG, aaaAAAAA,” exclaims me while I am taking DUMP, for example. Not cool.
-Totally just grabbed another plate of spaghetti.
-Totally love Lady gaga (but I hate kanye)-> just wanted to clear that up without having to backtrack to the previous paragraph.
-Totally got some spaghetti on my notes. Totally just fucked up my chances of passing this class because I am about to pass out right now.
-Totally am using the word “totally” way too much, considering I never use that word.
-Too many TV shows are on my hard-drive right now, begging to be watched by me. Don’t worry, I will be watching you soon.
-Needs to go shopping for new clothes. I have been wearing sweatpants for way too many days in a row. Anybody wanna come with?
school is officially taking a gigantic dump on my chest. just guessed all the answers to my last med chem quiz. haven’t started pharmacology. haven’t started biopharmaceutics. i am now officially starting to freak out a bit and i’ve been on fb too much recently to complain on there.
First few weeks were fun, but nows a good time to just buckle down and release the inner asian inside of me LOL. All my house mates are going on a euro-trip this summer…. amsterdam, barcelona, etc etc, and i can’t go because of money. I just hate how i have nothing to really look forward to nowadays, just two more years of bullshit. It would make waking up for class that much easier if i had something to feel excited about. The only thing that gets me to class in the morning is scott banging on my door to wake up, and the thought of eating at busch… yeh, when the busch dining hall is the highlight of your day, you know you are doing something wrong…
on the bright side, my family and friends for the most part are happy and healthy. at the end of the day, that’s the most important thing to me. So in a way, I really shouldn’t be complaining-> and I should be thankful for everything. Sometimes, it’s really hard to think that way when pharmacy’s phist is shoved thoroughly up my asshole.
Laptop Giveaway:
Hey guys, this is a Lenovo Thinkpad that I’m giving away. My uncle works for a PC company, although since it’s not the newest model, the company gets rid of the PC’s and laptops by giving them to its workers. My uncle decided to give it to me since he has no need for it… I, myself, already have a Lenovo so why not make someone’s day? If you’re interested, here’s how you can win this laptop:
Rules:
- You do not have to live in the US.
- You may reblog this as many times as you like.
- You must be following http://lin-octavius.tumblr.com/
The System:
- I’ve seen many people do this, so I decided to follow their example. I’ll copy down all those who reblog this post onto a Word .doc, therefore the more you reblog, the more chances you get to win.
- When the post reaches 22,222 notes, that’s when I’ll pick a winner.
Chicken and waffles. A place called Last Legg. They were blasting rap. I was drinking sweet tea like a boss. This is a hidden gem in the new brunss area.
First off, the amount of talent and leadership throughout all the years of pharmacy is astonishing. Oh man. I don’t know why it became that big a deal that I won, but it ended up being an extremely epic night. It was honestly such an awkward feeling to get so much praise for something that most people thought was just a pharmacy event… but man, the officers of 2014 knew what the hell they were doing and pulled it off for sure. I mean, you should have seen the color coded program, I Came in my pants a tiny bit.
They took 12 pharmacy clowns, gave us the freedom to fuck around, and turned it into something pretty hysterical.
Everyone involved with the show brought their A game. Basically, all my opponents were some of my closest friends in pharmacy school. There was NO pressure…. there was only the opportunity to have a good fucking time.
I was nervous about going up because I couldn’t get my dance down perfectly. You should have seen me in the dressing room. I didn’t want to let down the audience, my friends, and especially Mimi/Jinah… because these girls took time out of their busy schedules to help me out with my Pharm.D talent when,
1. I honestly don’t know them that well
2. They are in different years/pledge classes
I wound up fucking-up half the entire dance but no one even cared (only the beyonce fans knew i fucked up LOL) It’s mindblowing to see a shit-ton of my friends gathered in one area, supporting a cause. It’s kind of surreal actually, cuz nothing like this ever happened in my life. I had no idea that what I did could even be considered a talent…
I think people nowadays just love to celebrate, no matter how big or small the accomplishment is. I love how I got to chill with a significant amount of PDC kids last night too. I’ll be honest with you, they are legit, especially the 30 hardenberg ones ;P I remember having this deep conversation with Alex Wei about unifying the pharmacy school more, but I was completely gone at that point. Its funny cuz i just met him that day and he was chilling with my housemates and shit in my basement, it was hilarious. I was loving the LKS crowd support as well, especially Dana, who supposedly lost her voice, loll.
Doris Tran, Bowen Hu, Wei Hou, Kevin yu, youhanna, Yongjie, Nicole, and Yunlu- thanks for being bold enough to help out for the video when no one else seemed to display any interest. It means a big deal to me, especially since I never have time to make videos anymore. Mad thanks to Murray/Deb/Rushi and the somerset house for letting me film in their creepy basement LOL. And for being patient when I left in the middle of filming, to buy whipped cream from the conv. store.
The crazy part is, I didn’t film the video. All my actors, each co-directed their own scene. I especially remember Youhanna looking like a total fucking idiot when we were filming cuz of his green dress shirt, and he ended up looking badass in teh end product. Kevin, with his newly shaved head, looked like a cross between a buddhist monk and a Yakuza. I don’t even have a comment for the Dexter scene LOLLLL, that’ll just stay between us three HAHA.
I wore a suit the whole night and felt like Barney Stinson, minus the man-whoreness. Came back home and the suit was spotless. I flew kites till the sun rose.
All in all, my night started at 7 PM and ended at 9 oclock in the morning… ending with a trip to this insane ass food place that Rath told us about, kinda forgot where it was, and I was even driving…
It was the perfect day for me. All my friends in one place, laughed a shitload, played fifa, flew kites for like 6 hours straight, made friends, got closer to my close friends, and ate.
I’m kinda still overwhelmed. It’s weird to think I was at the lowest point in my life only a few months ago. And now it seems like there’s hope for a change. I’m really excited about what this semester will bring.
